Night comes and this beautiful planet, covers its belongings including us humans with a blanket. The sun that slides down from east to west passing through the clouds while playing hide & seek with us hides completely and allows us humans to rest. The birds start singing with the rhythm of silence of the night. The wind reaches my room dancing and tells a story in my ears as it enters my room through that half-open window glass. I then realize, now it’s the time to meet someone whom I can never meet in those crowded streets, in that brightness of day light.
Yes it’s that time of the nights I am talking about… when tired bodies of us humans rest in peace and allows our mind to hibernate for a while. It’s the time when majority of us prefers to close our eyes… and to dream, kiss and make love.
I open the other half of my window to allow it to enter my room comfortably I allow my soul to dance with that tune of silence and to sing with those birds, those frogs without even knowing the lyrics. It’s only then I try to fall in love with that street that I see empty in front of my eyes; it’s only then I try to fall in love with that coldness of dew drops dissolving in my hand and making it wet. It’s when I fall in love with everything that nature offers us and I believe all of them have souls inside them… which are untouchable, unspeakable.
It’s only time, when I find “myself” in me. It is the time I ask that myself in me, “Who am I really?”
Every night I meet “myself” in that darkness of night, far away from that crowd, which I have to be part of every morning when the Sun again returns to my place from yours and again takes away the “myself” away from “me”.
The next day when the sun moves dancing over my head… I smile looking at the sky and realize that if “myself” could not stay with me all the time … then its’ that “I” who have to walk this journey called life all alone.
I again smile looking at that innocent little girl walking with her mother holding her hands and start walking towards my destination. I turn my face to offer a gentle smile to an old man crossing the road, to a traffic police busy with his job, to a beautiful girl whom I meet for the first time.
“I” and that “Smile” on my face walk until again that darkness of night, that silence of street, that moonlight, that empty field, that sky filled with stars again allow that “I” in me to meet “myself” and interact honestly.
Have that “I” in you ever met that “myself” in you? If yes, then what were the question you’ve asked him/her?
pattisj
April 20, 2013
Wow, that’s a pretty deep question! I will have to think about this one.
Arindam
April 21, 2013
Do let me know once you come up with the answer patti. 🙂
saradanaidu
April 20, 2013
wow nice and worth reading.
We miss your writings alot. Try to post atleast once a week
Arindam
April 21, 2013
Thanks!! I too miss writing, but then I think life is all about quitting & letting things go and I have no idea if writing is something which is next in that list. 🙂
souldipper
April 21, 2013
You are embarking upon the very investigation that connects us to the Universe, Arindam.
At night when I review my day – and face , with difficult honesty, those times my character defects took over – I learn so much about myself and decide the action I need to take. My teachers have taught me to observe without chastisement. I can simply trust that I’ll do it differently next time. To whatever degree. Or, I can promise myself that I’ll take the first opportunity to make amends in some way.
I know I’ll never have a clean daily inventory (bless my humanity), but I can start anew if I face myself squarely. Knowing that helps me stop being rude to the driver going so slow when I have to catch a ferry.
My world is safe while I’m asleep! 😀
Arindam
May 3, 2013
Amy Auntie, I am not sure if my world is safe or not when I sleep! Because once I sleep I hardly cares for something else. 🙂
Jokes apart, I loved what you have said here. Yes by reflecting up on our own behaviors, our own thoughts and deeds we can bring many changes in to our lives. They may seem relatively smaller ones. But in the long run, they bring a massive change in our personality.
Thanks as always for your words of wisdom Amy auntie!!
reneejohnsonwrites
April 21, 2013
That you are looking for the deepest part of yourself is often more than others ever do, and the beginning of a journey that will enrich your life. Nice post.
Arindam
April 22, 2013
Thanks Renee!! I too hope it’s just the beginning of a wonderful journey I’ve to cover. 🙂
dadirri7
April 21, 2013
such beautiful writing arindam, from your beautiful self … a wonderful enquiry to discover who you are … life loving life, life being!
Arindam
April 21, 2013
Thanks Christine. I am glad that you liked my thought. It’s a pleasure to see you here. I hope all is well with you too. Have a great day!!
georgettesullins
April 21, 2013
When I take time to do what I want, what may be out of the ordinary, not on my schedule, that would be “myself”…what I do for myself. But generally, I dutifully fulfill my responsibilities and obligations. That would be “I”. But when I do something for “myself” I nod in satisfaction recognizing that’s “me” and I’m grateful for not losing “myself.”
This is a lovely post. You’ve expressed and developed it well and I thank you for posing the questions that made me stop and reflect. Yes, blogging is something I do for “myself”.
I liked your references to “smiling” revealing the connections you made to those around you. You smiled at the sight of the old man, policeman and young girl…I wonder if they (would) smile in return. But perhaps that’s not important, if you’re smiling inside.
Arindam
May 5, 2013
I just loved your interpretation of “I” and “Myself”. And let me tell you that , both those “I” and “myself” in you complement each other really well. 🙂
I am glad that you found my words in this post worth reading.
Thanks again for this lovely comment.
earthriderjudyberman
April 21, 2013
Arindam, from all that I’ve read and “seen” of you, I would say that you are indeed a “caring, nice, honest person.” There are times when I’ve asked these same questions of myself. I’m not always happy with how I’ve responded to a person or situation. But I keep trying to do my best. That’s all any one can ask. Your compassionate nature will keep you on the right path, my friend.
Arindam
April 30, 2013
Thanks my dear friend. Judy your words always make me feel good about myself and with the work I do in my blog. So a big thank you for sending me your blessings and good wishes in form of these kind words. Have a great day Judy!!
earthriderjudyberman
April 30, 2013
🙂 Thank you, Arindam.
belasbrightideas
April 24, 2013
Arindam, I love this! We, too, live close to nature. When it’s dark, it’s dark. And I revel in it.
The questions you ask yourself are wonderful – I hope you never stop asking. I love your reflections of the young and the old. The transience of time.
Are we the anger, the joy, the sadness? These are emotions and we all possess a plethora of emotions. We are all of these things, but not all the time. And as Don Miguel Ruiz talks about in his The Four Agreements teachings, humans are here to make emotions. We are here to learn how to make choices about what we’ve been told/who we’ve been told we are, and who we, in our deepest essence, aspire to be and know ourselves to be, at our deepest core. Sounds like you are on that path. Wonderful!
In my experience and from where I sit at sixty, those aspirations will lead deeper into the core of who we really, indeed, Are. That purity, that essence, of spirit in form.
And that, my friend, can be a glorious meeting!
Arindam
August 24, 2013
Thanks for this thoughtful comment, Bela. Yes after reading so many posts of yours, I can easily say that You too seek answers of so many complicated questions life asks us by staying close to the nature. Various emotions flows through us, and a person can honestly express those emotions only if he/she find some time to spend with his inner personality. It’s always a pleasure to read when you share such deep thoughts, Bela. And I am really sorry for such late reply to this comment of yours.
belasbrightideas
August 26, 2013
Oh, Arindam – no worries! I’m happy you enjoy my posts, and thanks so much for your high praise. Aloha and Namaste to you!
Arindam
August 26, 2013
Namaste, Bela. You know, how much I enjoy your writings.
Patti Kuche
April 24, 2013
Lovely to read your words of warmth and sincerity Arindam.
To be honest, I am a better person if I get a goodnight’s sleep whereupon I can leave behind any sense of myself . . .
Arindam
April 25, 2013
Great to see you again, Patti.
Yes if a good sleep in night makes you a better person, then there is nothing wrong with that.
Have a great day patti.
Maxi
April 26, 2013
If you can look in the mirror and like that person … you are good to go.
Sorry for being gone, have been very sick. Also, serious family issue takes my time right now.
blessings to you Arindam ~ maxi
Arindam
April 27, 2013
It makes me worried to hear that all is not well with you, Maxi.
Take care of yourself. All my good wishes are always with you and your family.
bronxboy55
April 28, 2013
Do you really believe the world sees you as angry and arrogant? I can’t imagine it. Your blogging friends certainly don’t think of you that way.
Arindam
April 30, 2013
I am not sure what all my other blogging friends think about me; but if you think the other way than I think I am pretty fine with the way I am Sir Charles.
Mal
May 2, 2013
“It’s only then I allow my soul to dance with that tune of silence …” Love this line, Arindam! God bless.. 🙂
Arindam
May 2, 2013
Thanks a lot. 🙂 I am glad to hear that you liked that specific line. It feels great to see your presence in my blog. Have a great day!! 🙂
Angelia Sims
May 2, 2013
You are so young to feel so deeply and grasp this concept. Quite amazing really. I met myself once. She was a scared, and abused four-year old and I gave her a big hug. We’ve been pals ever since. 🙂
Arindam
May 3, 2013
Angelia, it’s wonderful that you could meet yourself at such young age. It took me almost 25 years of my life, to meet myself. 🙂 Thanks for stopping by. It’s always my pleasure to see you here.
Sunshine
May 13, 2013
wow, very deep mind thinking going on here…but it is good because you are always asking questions to find out who you are. many times we live day to day so busy with all the stuff we think we “need” to do in life but sometimes taking moments like this to ask who are we really is very beneficial. it’s good to be able to think on things and then let the words go free on the page…☺
Arindam
May 16, 2013
Sunnshine, you always have the best and kindest words to leave here dear! Thank you. 🙂
I am that my free words could reach you floating here. Have a great day!! 🙂
Sunshine
May 17, 2013
you’re welcome, Arindam! ☺
Arindam
May 17, 2013
🙂
Sunshine
May 17, 2013
you’re welcome, Arindam! ☺
Brown Road Chronicles
August 23, 2013
Hey buddy! I haven’t spent much time around here yet, but this is such great writing… so poetic! That’s a hard question; I think of “myself” as the selfish time, the time when I need to do my own thing, recharge, or whatever you want to call it. Not to discount that, it’s important! But the “I” is more important, its the building up of the person “I” want to be. That has so many facets… not only me but who I am with, what I am doing, who I am interacting with, how I am relating with my loved ones, how I am expressing my creativity. Its the “I” that makes us who we are… I think?!? It’s the “myself” that allows us to be the “I”s that we are… holy smokes…… profound!!!!!
Arindam
August 24, 2013
Thanks a lot, Steve. I could not have said it better, as you summarized this post so beautifully. Yes “I” is being more practical approach to live our life, and “Myself” gives us the strength and values that we need to use and implement to grow that “I” in all of us as human beings. I am glad you enjoyed my writing. Comments like this one of yours, is very inspiring and thought provoking. Thanks bro, for sharing your thoughts.
mariner2mother
August 23, 2013
First, let me say that your writing was so descriptive that I was right there, feeling the warm breeze, making me miss being in foreign lands. It was exquisite.
To answer your question, I meet myself when I am sitting by the ocean, or am on it. I connect with it. The trappings of the every day disappear.
Arindam
August 24, 2013
Let me first tell you, I too meet myself whenever I get a chance to sit by the ocean and to hear its roar. I believe if we carefully look at the ocean, we can feel it tells hundreds of stories connected to us humans and our emotions.
Whenever I write, I try my best to share everything in detail. Sometimes I successfully do so and most of the times I fail with my attempt. I am glad I could achieve it this time. Thanks a lot for reading this one, and sharing your thought. 🙂
Hippie Cahier
August 23, 2013
This is beautiful and so thoughtful, Arindam.
Your words evoked the sense that I have when I am alone near water, usually early in the morning or late at night under a moonlit sky. I’m not sure it’s the same, but maybe.
Arindam
August 24, 2013
Thanks Hippie.
Yes I believe it’s same during an early morning or late night. During both the times, I feel our planet provides us that space we need to look deeper into ourselves and our lives.
Angelia Sims
August 23, 2013
Beautiful writing Arindam and I LOVE the photo. Meeting myself and I, yes I do, along with a few others. Dreams are a wonderful thing. 🙂 Letting go and flying, even better.
Arindam
August 24, 2013
Thank you, Angelia. I know yesterday was your birth day and I also know how much special is this one for you as you are waiting to welcome your grand baby. My best wishes are with you and your family. 🙂
rangewriter
August 23, 2013
I’m pretty selfish. See, I even start my comment with “I”! Myself and I feel pretty integrated and I think I’m ever mindful of what I needs to do to keep myself happy. And, I’d have to say, most of the time, that’s just what I do.
Arindam
August 24, 2013
I feel it’s good to be selfish, as long as a person is kind and generous. Oops, just see I too showed my selfishness by starting my comment with “I”. 🙂 After interacting with you so many times, I can tell you one thing, there is no need to change anything about you. You are just wonderful, Linda. 🙂
Enjoy your weekend!!
lisajohnsonsawyer
August 23, 2013
My dearest Arindam,
This really touched me. You haven’t a clue. My post today is dedicated to you. You are a phenomenal man. It speaks in your words…
my answer on my post….lisa.
Arindam
August 24, 2013
Wow! This comment made my day, Lisa. Thanks a lot. I read your post and it was just beautiful. Thanks for all your kind words. I am glad my words could touch you so much. Have a great weekend!!
lisajohnsonsawyer
August 25, 2013
It did touch my heart and my soul.
I am sure I am not the only one. Sometimes in life we are touched by in ways indescribable that words resonate the soul to make our minds reveal the real us. Some of us let it. Some of us don’t.
Sometimes we are seeking.
Your words are magical. I love to read your posts! And one more thing….
The title of your blog..”being Arindam”…I’d say, it’s perfect.
Arindam
August 26, 2013
Yes Lisa it’s all about accepting honestly whatever our souls tell us. My words could touch you, it means a lot. Thanks again for all these kind words. My best wishes are always with you!!
Amy
August 24, 2013
“I” meet myself indeed is a long journey. And, most of the time, we put one foot ahead of the other, one step at a time… “I” who have to walk this journey called life all alone — Beautifully said. Your beautiful post takes us to “I meet myself”. Thank you, Arindam!
Arindam
August 24, 2013
Yes Amy, I agree it’s a long and tiring journey. I am glad my words could take you to meet yourself. 🙂 Have a great weekend!!
greenlightlady
August 24, 2013
At night as I fall to sleep I tend to converse with the Creator; however, in the morning mirror I have met me and asked her what does she really want to do with her life? Motherhood sometimes creates a fog around a woman’s mind. Being a mom is a good thing as long as I don’t forget that I am also me. Thank you for your always thought-provoking posts, Arindam.
Arindam
August 25, 2013
Windy, you shared your thoughts of being a mother so beautifully with your words here. I too believe a person needs to be careful to not lose her own identity while giving all her time to other relationships. Have a great Sunday!!
ladyfi
August 26, 2013
What a wonderful post. My I often asks my ME – who am I? Where do I want to go? How can I get there?
Arindam
August 26, 2013
Thanks a lot. It’s wonderful that your “I” finds time to ask your “me” such important questions. I believe questions like these helps us grow as human beings.
ladyfi
August 26, 2013
Sure does. My most important questions though is: What is the meaning of life?
Arindam
August 26, 2013
I agree, defining life is the most important thing for each one of us.
Anka
August 27, 2013
I’ll have to give you a rain check to your question. But, as for the “Smile on my face walk. . .” line, I can tell you there have been days I wake up with eager expectation. And, there are nights I go to sleep with expectation as well. These feelings of hope definitely make me smile.
Arindam
August 27, 2013
Anka I agree, without hope life seems pointless. None of us can ever extract everything we want from our own lives, it’s that hope which keeps our desires, happiness and peace alive. So true!! I will wait for your answer to my question. 🙂
happykidshappymom
August 28, 2013
Arindam, this is one of my very favorite posts that you’ve written. Such a simple question, yet with such a complex answer. In many ways, the question is impossible to answer. I so enjoyed your visions of the street outside your window, and the honesty with which you expressed the changing of your self-views. Beautiful.
Arindam
August 28, 2013
Thanks Melissa. Appreciation coming from you always means a lot. Simple questions like this one, create a huge impact on our personality and make us who we are today. 🙂
mariayarri
August 28, 2013
I have a lot of self-awareness in my luggage … Otherwise i would not be able to do my job …
// Maria 🙂
Arindam
August 28, 2013
It’s wonderful then. Have a great day Maria! 🙂
outaboutmum
August 29, 2013
Wow what a beautiful and thought provoking post. Thank you for following my little mummy blog and for introducing me to your blog. You have a very inspirational outlook, I look forward reading more and hope my hints and little tricks of the trade may be able to interest you or others you might know. Thank you again
Arindam
August 30, 2013
Thanks a lot for your kind words. I am glad you could enjoy this post. I too look forward to visit your blog and read your stuffs. Have a great day!
2e0mca
August 29, 2013
One of my old work colleagues used to travel adound the M25 and M1 trying to keep up with several girlfriends without them discovering his duplicity. Needless to say the standing joke was that he passed himself several times on the motorway going in opposite directions 😉
I meet myself regularly at night when the sun dies and the moon isn’t sure about showing his face. That sudden awakening in the small hours where the debates within me held in abeyance during the day by the noise of everyone else’s thoughts can be discussed silently. And they’re always there Arindam – decisions that have been held over. And worries about what didn’t get done in the day just gone… It’s a world that is too busy – the night now provides the only time for any of us to catch up 😦
munchow
August 31, 2013
After having read this wonderful, philosophical, poetic and life-affirming piece of text, my mind goes not so much to the “I” as to the “myself”. Because isn’t that “myself” something bigger than “I”, all the world and all beyond this world encompassed in one moment? If that is the care I think my “I” meet “myself” when I am creating, when I am loving, when I can dissolve “I” and be one with “myself” and the moment. A beautiful writing, Arindam! Thank you.
Arindam
October 31, 2013
Thanks a lot Otto for this thoughtful comment. your comments are always encouraging. Since I started blogging, you are one among those few talented people who always helped me in improving my skills. I thank you for that.