A thread of unconditional love that ties us together,
no matter how far we live… makes both of us feel connected and near.
An unavoidable ego that stops me from sending you a sms or to make you a call…
An insecure dream that does not allow me to keep you near…
With A fake a smile that hides my tear…
I still convince you and others….
That now you have no importance in my life dear.
You know, I too realize,
How much we still mean to each other,
And I know, you realize,
We do not fall in to the genre of people,
Whom the world term as “A couple made for each other”.
But why to worry,
If nothing can stop us from
praying for each other,
Wishing for each other,
silently loving each other
And occasionally missing each other….
Wishing you all a happy valentine day…. Life moves on too fast… and it never allows any of us to predict our future…. So enjoy every moment you spend with your dear ones….
“Happy Valentine’s day”
I close my eyes lying on my bed, while that noise produced by movement of my old fan hanging from my room’s ceiling breaks the pin drop silence of night. I squeeze my body under the blanket covering my face hearing those street dogs barking with the fear that there must be some devil power near. I recall those stories my grandmother told me as a kid; stories of those kings who fought the battles to marry beautiful princess of their neighbor states. I recall the moral of all those stories my mother told me , “how it’s always the good that win against bad”.
Experiences wash away a person’s childhood beliefs and with time the moral of those stories somehow seems meaningless. Like every person, I too create my own belief with my own experience. Sometimes when I am tired and my body does not much care about things like fear, memories and dreams; it allows me to sleep and let my soul to rest in peace until the sun rises and pours its rays on my face through my window glass. And sometimes when I return home being a loser and go to bed, I find myself drowning in that deep well of fear, frustration and botheration. I do not feel good while spending a night in that deep well which is covered with darkness where bright rays of hope and peace do not fall.
Some days, I feel good about myself, while going to the bed. I feel like I am blessed of being “who I am”. I close my eyes and in no time let a blanket of dreams to cover my mind while covering my body with that brown blanket, which I keep with me since my childhood days. And that’s when I see you there, standing by my side, holding my hand, making me feel the strongest man in this planet. When you come in my dreams just like a master magician, you create such an illusion that you do not allow me to realize that you are not there physically with me. I wipe off my lips with my dry hands to make sure that you have not left any mark to let other see that you have kissed me. I make sure you have not left a single long hair on my white shirt, so that my friend can guess that again you kept your head on my shoulders sitting by my side. I comb my hair with my hands, to make sure I am still looking good, once I stop feeling tip of your finger moving inside the bucket of hair lying on my head. I realize that your lips still fits in to mine when it kisses my lips; I feel that your fingers have not lost their softness when they touch my face; I see your eyes have not lost their innocence when they meet mine in all these years you are not there with me.
Sun rises; birds come out of their nests; my cell phone’s alarm rings; and signals that now it’s time for me to say “good bye” to you again. You gently disappear leaving me alone, with a smiling face. I open my eyes and realize that the magic is now over. I sit on my bed, with the same expression on my face as it used to appear when I was a kid and I’ve to wake up at 5 AM to go for English tuition when except my mother everyone else was in their deep sleep. I used to ask myself “When the wait will be over!! When I will be grown up, so that I can do whatever I want”. And now after so many years I wake up with the same question roaming in my mind, “When the wait will be over! When I am going to feel and see you with open eyes!!” I hope you realize that, you look more beautiful when you appear in front of me with my eyes open, in that pink and white salwar without a single layer of make up on your face. Do not you!!
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And do let know all your friends about this giveaway, which will be available only on 18th and 19th Jan2013.
I will wait to hear what you people have to say about the book.
What’s up! I’ve not written a single post this year. So I thought, you people might have forgotten me. I have achieved more than what I desired last year, through blogging. The only regret is that, I could never see myself in that freshly pressed list. But it was a fair call; so I accepted it whole heartily But I am happy that my post based on a fictional love story “I too had a small love story” topped the Google search item list. It was a sample chapter of the novel I am writing currently. SO I am glad to receive such an overwhelming response on that post.
Even today I receive mails from my own countrymen, praising my work. And believe me it means a lot. And I have completed more than half of my first fictional book. So I am happy and satisfied. And if you have not read this post, then go and read it; so that through your feedback I can try to do necessary changes to my first fictional book. I’ve a feeling it’s going to change my life.
I am not going to be that much active in this blogosphere this year; as I have so many things to do this year. Starting from my first two novels to a short movie based on one of my most favorite story, “Rebati” (Which is a short story based on a girl’s life).
So please send me your good wishes and blessing this year too. What if I am not going to active in this blogosphere; you people know how much I love and care for you. Do not you!
Wishing you all the happiness my dear blogging friends and readers!
The WordPress.com stats helper monkeys prepared a 2012 annual report for this blog.
Here’s an excerpt:
4,329 films were submitted to the 2012 Cannes Film Festival. This blog had 46,000 views in 2012. If each view were a film, this blog would power 11 Film Festivals
Wishing all lot more happiness, success, peace and togetherness in the coming year. May god bless you all with everything you want from life.
Happy New Year 2013
I do not know how many of you have read my book; but if you have read it, then you must have read that chapter called “Power of streets”. If you have, then you must have known what I am talking about. If you have read it then, you must have been realizing why I say that not many celebrities much really care about what happens to their countrymen. And let me say you, unfortunately I was never wrong.
Yes might be people whom I know in the real world do not feel I am intelligent; but I am glad that people of my country have reacted the same way as I always wished and hoped. After a girl gang raped by six men, in front of her boy friend; we the people of India are now on streets. I am living in a different city, so I can’t join them; but I feel proud for what they are doing. We do not know that girl and its fine; but it makes me proud and somehow satisfied, when I think and realize that so many people are fighting for her. Some among those people might have registered their presence on streets for some selfish intentions, some of them are also reacting violently while they are protesting; but I am completely ignoring them and their behavior and intention. I am seeing a bigger picture here. For the first time since I was born in this country called India, I have seen so many people realizing the power of the street for a common reason which is “safety of women“. And I really appreciate it. I always knew the power of streets of India; but I am happy and satisfied that people of India are now realizing it.
It’s a protest that millions people of our country are doing. They are not coming out of their homes, offices, schools or colleges having any selfish intention in their hearts, bodies, minds or souls like reservation for minority or increase in salaries; but they are coming out to give women of this country a better and safe environment, where they can roam anywhere, anytime without any fear in them. And the best thing is that millions of young people are leading this protest without any leader. This shows somehow we all now do not have much faith in our leaders. And it’s a reality we all need to accept.
I do not know what will happen to that innocent girl in future. But every minute, every second I pray a better future for her. We all need to think what we would have done, if the same thing has happened to girlfriend of any of us, sisters of any of us, daughters of any of us or wife of any us. Even I want to say that, forget about every relationship, what if she is just a common girl like billions of other of this planet; won’t you fight for her, won’t you pray for her.
I know you must be celebrating your Christmas with your loved ones; but do me a favor and pray with me for that girl. I want to see her happy, healthy. She deserves it my friends. She has fought the battle till now all alone; now we must support her in whatever small way we can; may it be by keeping her in our prayers or protesting on street for her and millions of other women.
Merry Christmas to you all and your family; but honestly, more than celebrating I want you all to pray for her just for a minute with me. She needs to win this battle against those devils and what they did with her. Those devils not only raped her but also us as humans and our humanity. And we have no rights to stay at our homes and celebrate Christmas in whatever country we are living in after something like this happen to an innocent girl, who also lives in the same planet. So we all need to try to bring back that humanity to our society.
Ask any young man of my country, what is that one and only thing which he wants from life? If he is like John Lennon, then his answer will be “Happy”; and if not then he would end up saying that, he wants Fame, money and success. In 21st century to find a person who believes in John Lennon’s ideology is very rare. In most of the cases, a young man’s answer will be famous; because he is intelligent enough to realize fame will bring the money and power with it; where as there is no guarantee money or power can offer fame to any person.
In India, majority of the youth get attract towards movie industry, music industry or cricket. When I chose specifically cricket instead of game or sport; you may raise the question, why? It’s simply because each one of us realizes cricket can offer that much fame and money; which no other sports can give to an Indian. When you ask a person who wants to enter the movie industry, what he wants to do in film. In major cases the answer would be either Actor or Actress. Again it’s because not many young people want to work in the background. In India, everyone knows what sells and what not; so all of us want to sell ourselves at the highest rate.
When India reached to the semi final of cricket world cup; a statement made by an infamous model reached to the headline of all news channels. Because, for the first time in India a girl dared to say that, she would pose nude if India would win the world cup. Things like this happen in other countries during soccer world cup. But in India it’s for the first time; as it’s completely against our culture and moral values. I can assure you that, it was not the reason behind India winning the world cup. Because that model used to hide a little part of her body in the videos she appeared before this event took place, although no one cared much about seeing her bare body. So watching her nude would have hardly matters to our players or to majority of the people living in this beautiful country. Still she got what she intended, while giving such a dreadful statement. She got that attention of people very easily by giving such a bold statement; although she never dared to appear nude, once India won the cup.
Controversies are always considered as the easiest path towards fame. Many people choose that path; some choose to appear in public events with such a small dress that their inner wear would be caught in the camera (which indirectly help them to hit the top of that “trending now” list in the name of wardrobe malfunction); some choose to go for nude photo shoot, some chose to spread false rumors, some choose to give unnecessary statement to stay in the news and the list goes on.
But the question arises, what made all of us so hungry for that fame and attention. Let me simplify it for you. The dictionary meaning of fame is, “The condition of being known or talked about by many people, especially on account of notable achievements.”
But I wonder if someone is posing nude for a magazine is it a notable achievement. I hope somewhere we all are wrong with the way we are interpreting fame these days. We are somehow interpreting the word “Fame” in a wrong way or we are trying to achieve fame by doing cheap stuffs. To achieve something it sometimes take a whole life time; so how can someone get it within few minutes, few hours or in few days of his(her) life. Actually it’s our entire fault; we give unnecessary attention to those people who do not deserve it and help them live with the illusion as if they are famous. The day we will start ignoring people like them and stuffs they do; automatically the system will change. If people stop watching them, then the media will stop covering their stories. It’s a fact that media covers only those stories, which interests a large group of people.
There is nothing wrong in striving for fame, or trying to grab attention of others by doing right stuffs, by doing stuffs that will make us proud in one way or other.
I will not afraid to say, I too want to see myself as famous, not only because I want to be recognized by others or appreciated by others for my work. But as I born and brought up in a country, where I have to live with, I have to compete with and to adjust with 1.2 billion other people all though my life. So I hope fame will make my voice Lauder, my presence brighter and will offer me a medium or platform by which my thoughts will transmit very clear. We all need money, and most of the people now have it with them. But I want fame; because, I want to speak to others, by not standing in the crowd, but standing on the stage with the microphone in my hand, so that people will remain silent and listen to my voice when I will try to make them realize our duty as humans, or I will try to convince them, what we are doing is wrong or will ask them for support for a specific cause. We live most of our lives as a common man like million others, shouting on the road for a right cause even though no one bothers listening to us. So if fame gives a person a platform to speak, a louder voice which will be audible to millions of other people; then there is nothing wrong in it. But a person who gets it, need to use it properly. He should never feel afraid to speak the truth or to fight for the right cause. Fame is something people gift him without expecting anything in return; so a person need to realize it’s his duty and responsibility to try and bring change in lives of those people who have changed his life. Fame does not only mean, people running behind a person for autographs and photographs or facing the limelight all the time.
We need to realize fame not only makes us one among millions, but also it brings some responsibility with it. We need to behave and act responsibly while we get a chance to live with that state of fame. Fame is temporary; we need to try to make the most out of it by using the attention in a good way.
As you all know, today all of you can download my book’s kindle version free from Amazon site-
Amazon.com, Amazon.co.uk, Amazon.de, Amazon.fr, Amazon.es, Amazon,it, Amazon.co.jp, Amazon.ca and Amazon.com.br
You can also download it by visiting the “Amazon Store App” from your IPhone and IPad.
But my request is that download it, read it and like it, then if you want write a review on my book’s amazon page. And if you really like it, then you can tell the people you know about the book. But please do not share this book with all. Let few people buy it too.
And not to forget if you want then re-tweet , re-blog or share about today’s free distribution of my book through twitter, your blogs or Facebook. That will help my cause a lot.
Now visit amazon and get your free copy and if you like my book, then later you can buy it too.
“I wish and hope you are going to enjoy the read”
I do not know exactly how many of you have already read my book. But I think still there are many of you who have not read it yet.
So here is a Christmas gift from my side to you all (although it’s for my book promotion, but it sounds good when I say Christmas gift; is n’t it!). I am going to make my book “I wish and hope” kindle version available for free on 14th December 2012. If you do not have a kindle device then also you can read it by downloading it to your Iphone, IPad. You can use the Amazon app in your IPad or Iphone to download this book for free.
But if any of you plan to buy it, then you do not need to visit my book’s kindle page on 14th; it’s not a good place to visit that day. Jokes apart, honestly I want most of you to read this book; so that you people can make me realize my strengths, weaknesses as a writer and again it will help my book to reach more and more people.
Although I could not make paperback version of my book free, but now Amazon is giving discount on it too and now it’s much cheaper. Then if I will make every thing free then I can’t also live drinking water and breathing air. So I hope you can realize that.
And if you can then pass on this message to all those people who are in touch with you about this book’s free promotional event through your blog or any other social network site. I will appreciate that. I want to reach as many people as I can with this free distribution of my book’s kindle version.
Here is the link- http://www.amazon.com/I-Wish-and-Hope-ebook/dp/B00AJVTV0K
If you can then spread the words with your friends, relatives, neighbors!